Only two days to the weekend!! It used to be such a refreshing thought, but of late its kind of depressing. I'm really not being fair on my girlfriend. The weekend is going to be great because I get to spend more time with her. Its just the feeling that two very important little people aren't there. It leaves a gaping hole in the whole proceedings.

Looks like another joyful day. My ex-wife asking for money, then asking me to pay her the money she has spent on paying bills over the last few months. trying to get my head around that one. I have been paying for everything over the last ten years, I lose my job and therefore my income so she has to pay to keep things together for a while and now she wants me to pay her back? Do you think I should put in a claim for the previous decade of financial torment I had to go through to maintain the lifestyle she enjoyed? Why does it all boil down to money?

Pobably because I haven't had any for a while. the thing is, I take the view that I will always be able to turn things around and get back on track. Some people call this a cavalier attitude to life when I tell them it isn't worth getting stressed if you can see light at the end of the tunnel. Just do what you can to get yourself there.

My poor girlfriend has been supporting me for the last six months now thankfully I am working so I can pay may way, but she has really had a rough time keeping us both afloat. In the short time we have been together I owe her a lifetime of gratitude.

Payday next week then. Just need to get through the next four days out of the way then my financial pride will be restored, albeit for a nano second until maintenance paymets etc. hit, then its back to square one. It will be brief, but beautiful.

Talking of maintenance, how does that work? London is meant to be one of the most expensive cities in the world to live, so when my ex moved to the west coast things should have got a little easier. It seems I will be funding a London city lifestyle no matter where she lives. I don't want to begrudge the children anything, but I need something to live on.

As long as they're happy I'm happy.